you are the only exception.

"you are the only exception..." right now i am fantasizing about singing this to a box of mac donalds french fries as i slowly eat them.  ugh... im not even hungry.

its been an interesting whirlwind of days.  my dr. called me and told me to come in so we could talk about my blood work. which is never a good thing. when you get tests run or bloodwork done all you want is a call from the medical assistant that says " everything is fine!" not, " please come in as soon as possible, in fact, how is today?"

it turns out that my glucose levels are also through the roof. so most likely i am on the path to diabetes. 

my dr. who was nice the first day and has now become short tempered and intimidating told me that we would have to put me on some kind of weight loss schedule. as she is telling me this i can see her getting meaner and meaner. and this was the appointment where if she said anything rude i was going tosay  "listen dr. i chose you because you were no nonsense and i like that quality in a dr. but i have a lot of questions and i may not be able to articulate what i want to say most of the time but i am not stupid. if you think that my inquires are a waste of your time than iam going to find a new doctor."  but instead of being mean she asked me if i had any questions and called me "hon" which of course made me start crying. ugh the embarrassment. then she was like, i know this can be overwhelming, its a lot of information to take in if you have any questions then call me. 

so i need to lose 8 pounds in the next 2 months. we are striving for one pound a week to aim low and be realistic. its funny because i was going to try and lose weight anyways and not really tell anyone because i felt that it was time but i didnt want anyone to be watching everything i put into my mouth. now, however i have to tell everyone because im pretty freaked out about my health. 

so im like, trying to cook as much as i can at home. im worried about how i am going to deal with food at school but i think it will be able to do it. i can either eat on my way out the door and wait until i get home, bring a snack or pack a lunch, or walk down to the trader joes and pick something up. im going to try and avoid the cafeteria as much as possible.

my big worry is the snacks and  packed lunch. i have no idea how to do that. so i guess this blog will focus a lot on that. liek how to make a barley salad. i imagine there will be a lot of salads, and other stuff that i do not have to cook or refrigerate.

today i ate miso soup, a doughnut and a half, three sipps of a too sugary boba drink, too salty chicken and garlic ginger greenbeans, white rice and a jar of coffee.

i need to buy more veggies.  oh and also, my second foray into vegetable broth was a disaster. im not going to use leeks next time, i dont like the taste.